Life is hectic here as well but at least things are looking up a little. Physically I'm finally recovering from my last surgery, next one will probably be in a year or so but if all goes as well as it goes now it might be the last one for a very long time!
I'm also busy working my tuchus off with portrait paintings and building websites. The first is for some much needed extra cash and the latter is volunteer work for foundations and organizations.
Right now I'm doing a family portrait for my Rabbi which is nerve-wracking as he expects a lot from me, I know I can do it but he's my mentor, spiritual advisor and confident so there is some pressure to deliver the very best I can.
As for paid work, I'm just not going to find any paid work with my ails soon. I'm too much of a risk for an employer but at least I'm not sitting around on my hindquarters doing nothing.
Hopefully somewhere next year after that other surgery I might be able to finally get a job, any job. Being an artist is something I can just forget as the government cut back on all aid for artists making it pretty much impossible. I don't mind going hungry for a month or so, did that plenty of times, but not being able to pay the rent and such oy no way.
You guys are making me jealous though with all your beautiful girlfriends!
I'm currently madly in love with someone but she'll never be interested in a crippled artist. Hopefully the very slow curve upwards in my life will continue and in ten years time or so someone might show actual interest. On the other hand, thinking back to my previous marriages I also see the good in being single...they were crazy and probably only "wanted" me because I was popular and making good money back then.
It's hard though suffering in silence like this but to be honest she doesn't need the crap in her life that I will bring into it.
Another thing I'm doing is taking care of my Great Dane, old lady soon to be ten. She's suffering from dementia and the one day she's like a puppy again and the other she hardly wants to get up. Keeping a close eye on her and as longs as she has her happy and playful days I'm okay with the extra care, to be fair without her I wouldn't even be here as she saved my life plenty of times just by being a big lapdog to me.
Yeah overall I'm doing much better and I'm a lot less depressed. Onwards!